The beginning is always frustrating..

Everyone begins somewhere, right?
Whether you’re starting to workout, starting a book, starting a YouTube channel, starting a new diet, etc. you need to push past the part of ‘I’m not seeing any results so I’ll just quit’.
And THAT is the hard part, at least for me.

I made the decision this year to start a blog, start a vlog, and start a YouTube channel. I can say that I enjoy it immensely and that really is the reason why I started creating.

But I have a drive in me. Something that won’t quit.

I want to help people. I want them to relate to me. I want to be able to share without judgement from others.

So it is disappointing when there is no interaction. I have to remember, though, that it isn’t the most important thing. The most important thing is that I truly enjoy what I am doing.

I never had many hobbies until I developed a love for cosmetics. When I found video editing, it was a completely new world for me. There is literally always something to learn when working with Adobe Creative Cloud and I am
C.O.N.S.U.M.E.D.

This new thing for me (YouTube, vlogging, blogging) is really enjoyable and I receive a sense of satisfaction knowing that I have mostly conquered being self-conscious and afraid of the world. If I am honest with myself, that is the reason why I started doing this: to get over my mental blocks so I can continue to grow into a beautiful human being.

Don’t be afraid anymore. There is so much more in the world when you start to let go of fear.

 

 

My sincerest appreciation to you for taking the time to read my entry/entries. If I can incite happiness and/or hope in just 1 person’s life, that is enough. There is a stigma against mental illness. That it has a certain face or feature. It doesn’t. 

xoxo

Allison/AllyNik