What do you need more of in your life? How can you get it?
Positivity & patience
I’ve always struggled with positivity and that started as a child. I can’t pinpoint why or when I started being so negative. My depression started at about 11 or 12 years old; I can barely remember the things that were going on in my life at that time. I don’t remember my first therapist talking about positive affirmations or being aware of negative thoughts. Actually, I don’t remember much of our sessions at all and she was my therapist for years. As I got older, my dad would just tell me to stay positive. It’s easier said than done. From a neurological stand-point, which actually makes total sense, I’ve become more aware of my habits, patterns, and tendencies. The prefrontal cortex, used in planning and personality development, continues to develop until a person is in their mid-twenties. I can get more positivity in my life by using what I know about myself and my development and look for triggers. I, also, have to start thinking as “the glass is half full” rather than “the glass is half empty” to have more positivity. I listen to motivational speakers on almost a daily basis and have a countless amount of self-help books for guidance on having positive thoughts. Last night, I actually started watching documentaries and reading about The Law of Attraction. I’m interested in that and even created a mini vision board last night. The Law of Attraction also considers patience with positivity. Patience is something I definitely need to work on. As I’ve stated before, I have been an ‘instant gratification’ type of person and it hasn’t done me any good. The problem with my patience is that, after waiting for what I think is long enough, I give up and say, “since it didn’t come in x amount of time, it won’t ever come.” I am changing this immediately. I have to breathe. I have to say to myself that it will happen, maybe not now, maybe not next year, but eventually, it will happen.