My 100 Days posts have been very choppy lately and, for that, I apologize. So I figure maybe an update is needed. Maybe not. Either way, it would probably be best for me to talk about these things, whether anyone listens/reads it or not. I've been reading a lot about astrology lately and even discovered …
Day 25/100
MARCH 11 Write a love letter to yourself. Lets see how long I can go without crying. I'll update you at the end of this letter. To me, You've come a long way; you've come further than you thought you would ever go. You were adamant that you wouldn't live to see your 21st birthday, …
VLOG 5
My extreme moods.
I sit here on a warm Saturday night, ready to go to bed already and it's only 9:00pm. I've been contemplating deleting my last two "personal" entries. But part of me doesn't want to ignore the fact that I felt those feelings so strongly. I didn't feel anything else [at the time]; I just felt …
VLOG 4
My mind isn’t as quiet as I have been today.
I can probably attribute my mood drag to my medication, or lack thereof, last night. I had to get it refilled today. But I was like this before I missed the dose, so how does that work? I have had so much race through my head that I don't even know how to comprehend it, …
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VLOG 3
The beginning is always frustrating..
Everyone begins somewhere, right? Whether you're starting to workout, starting a book, starting a YouTube channel, starting a new diet, etc. you need to push past the part of 'I'm not seeing any results so I'll just quit'. And THAT is the hard part, at least for me. I made the decision this year to …
My first video/vlog
I've wanted to start documenting my life over 10 years ago I've just recently gained the confidence in myself to film. You may not relate to me, or maybe you do. The point is that I've learned so much in the past 13 years about depression, anxiety, agoraphobia, bipolar disorder, etc. and I want to …
Is it failure or compromise?
I feel as though I've taken on too much and I'm at the point of tipping. But isn't that just an excuse for not trying? This year is coming to an end, and quickly. Let me recap 2017 Work full-time in an industry I despise Commute 90 minutes DAILY each way for work (until I …
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